03.28.18

There’s a presence in my room
And I know it’s not you

There’s a ghost in my bed
And there’s no way it can do

What you used to do for me
Or let me be what you could be

Cause there’s no way that you
Could ever be what you used to do

You let me go before I was ready
And I hung on way after reveille

Now I’m long gone on this troubled way
And you’re still stepping on merry bay

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03.20.18

There’s not enough love
In this whole wide world
To fix the holes in my heart
And the heed in my head

I’ve been so lost for so long
That I don’t see any lines,
Or other ways to wonder
Without falling into my grave

Either stand here heartless
Headless and hesitant,
Or make the move to mortality,
And meet my maker in moments

03.10.18

There’s so many times

When the moon is my only friend,

So many times

When I’d like to die

And never mend,

The broken bones

Inside my mind,

And fall to the worst feelings

Held inside this heart of mine

11.28.17

If I can’t admit it to you
Then who can I tell it to?
Probably a stranger I bet
Or a girl I had just met.
Someone who doesnt know
Who I think I want to be,
Someone who doesnt know
A damn thing about me.
Because I’m too ashamed to admit
That I’m not exactly great.
I’m not a great mate
Or a heart without hate.
But I’ll tell it right now
That I’m not really sure,
How I made it this far
With a soul so impure.
I’ve got the best intentions
And good first impressions,
But I doubt myself so much
That it’s myself I cant trust.
So it’s just kind of sad
How much I could have had,
If I had just loved myself
And kept contempt on the shelf.

11.18.17

You. You are why I hurt.

You are why I suffer.

But no, it’s me. I am why I hurt.

I am why I suffer and I’d rather die,

Than pine over you anymore.

It’s been so long that I’ve fucked my life,

Over the thought of you

And everything you were,

And everything you are.

But I just can’t help myself.

Because you are such a goddess,

And such a heart of gold,

That I couldn’t resist

Killing myself over you.

You were the one

To take me to the other side,

The greener side of life,

And the greener side of love.

You were the one,

Who would save me from myself.

But what am I left with now?

But the hate I have for myself

And the love I have for you.