03.20.18

There’s not enough love
In this whole wide world
To fix the holes in my heart
And the heed in my head

I’ve been so lost for so long
That I don’t see any lines,
Or other ways to wonder
Without falling into my grave

Either stand here heartless
Headless and hesitant,
Or make the move to mortality,
And meet my maker in moments

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Untitled – Song from Efforts to Be Free

This is a song I recorded today. I would love some feedback if anyone would be willing to give it a listen.

Song title: Untitled

Artist: Sean Florick

Album: Efforts to Be Free

11.18.17

You. You are why I hurt.

You are why I suffer.

But no, it’s me. I am why I hurt.

I am why I suffer and I’d rather die,

Than pine over you anymore.

It’s been so long that I’ve fucked my life,

Over the thought of you

And everything you were,

And everything you are.

But I just can’t help myself.

Because you are such a goddess,

And such a heart of gold,

That I couldn’t resist

Killing myself over you.

You were the one

To take me to the other side,

The greener side of life,

And the greener side of love.

You were the one,

Who would save me from myself.

But what am I left with now?

But the hate I have for myself

And the love I have for you.

 

11.15.17

​The memories come rushing back to me

Memories I don’t deserve to have

And my heart, it breaks open again

Right where the stitches are

That I put in place to mend

But they never stay in place

There’s something more at stake here

Than saving my aging face

Something more important to save here

Than my dignity and grace

11.03.17

Are you happy now? 

That you’ve convinced yourself

That to face agony alone

Is somehow noble of you


You won’t bother anyone

With your nonsensical suffering

Or your self belittling 

Or your torturous torment


You will carry your own weight

And not accept any help

You are alive. You are alone.

And it’s for the better


Besides…


They’d tell you to suck it up

If your pining were known

And you’d say thanks for your help

And continue to walk alone.